pack it up pack it in….

final confirmation….we are on our way out ha. out to  upstate ny.  our beautiful, wonderful, accomadating friend beth has invited us up there, to either rent the 4th bedroom in their house, or squat there until we have a place of our own. thank god. it is time for us to get out of here.  don’t get me wrong, i am grateful to sandy for letting us stay here….but you can only be comfortable on a twin mattress on the floor for so long.  and i long for something new. i want me and jesse to have a chance to start over.  i’ve been looking into aa meetings out there, and once we can get new york health insurance, i wanted us both to start IOP (intensive outpatient program)  once the drugs are gone, i have to sweep up all the wreckage of my past.  i am hopeful again, and looking forward to this alot.

the town our friend beth lives in is so incredibly beautiful….mountains and trees, little brooks and rolling meadows.  i love massachusetts, and nothing will ever compare to home, but upstate ny is nothing to sneeze at.   it will be a wonderful place to celebrate the harvest, jesse’s birthday, winter holiday’s and my own birthday.  just him and i, far away from all the bullshit….and a season away from our feuding families, away from the drugs…hopefully involved with new friends in the program, and beth and her friends….maybe even in our own place by new years.  a true new beginning.

i am so ready for this.