it’s been a while

sorry it’s been son long, but every time I come

to the library I am on job search, a serious one.

jesse and I have been on the clinic for about three

months now. say what you will about the clinic, but

all i know is that we only do coke once a week,

which is amazing for us. we do do benzo’s, but

we’ve been cutting down on that too. we do

our laundry, we pay ou rent. we are looking for

jobs. I am getting my teeth fixed, and finally gettting

work done on my liver.  we are living a human life.

and so what if we fuck up once in a while, it’s common.

and we are going to meetings. (not enough) but

i am a true beleiver that once the meetings pick up,

we won’t.  so say done is just like dope. say it’s

substituting, I dont’ care. it’s given me my life.

jesse even gave me a ring. it’s official. and I

couldn’t be happier. I won’t be writing regular agaiin

til i get a job. that comes first, but i had to fill you in.